Book delivery

What would I want delivered to my doorstep every morning, like the newspaper or milk? Books.

Let’s suppose these books are selected specially for me, but they are a surprise. I won’t know what books to expect, so it will be like a visit to the best bookshops, where I never know what treasure I will encounter. The only guarantee is that I will be enchanted, immediately engrossed, or filled with joy at what I will learn once I open the book’s cover.

The books will be both old and new. The new books will have colorful book jackets, like a Natalie Goldberg painting. Or understated images. The books that are old will be beautifully embossed with delicate art and elegant lettering. The old ones will never be musty, but perhaps fragranced with incense.

The book delivery will include some good, classic fiction. And poignant memoir, like Diary of Anne Frank. And travelogues, and the best instruction in the arts – visual , musical – and yoga, ballet, and cooking. Food. Histories of domestic life, like Lark Rise to Candleford, and children’s books like The Wind in the Willows, and Peter Rabbit. Poetry – free verse, haiku, lyric. And in all languages.

As a child I used to wonder why “Publisher’s Clearinghouse” had a monetary prize, and not publications: books. What a disappointment to learn that there are no “books every week for the rest of your life!” Of course, one could buy books with the money, but that would take away the element of surprise.

No, better to have a caravan stop quietly each morning at my door, and drop off a beautifully wrapped bundle of books tied with colorful silk string. I would pick it up from the porch with reverence, with the quiet joy of one who welcomes a dear, dear friend inside.

Praise piece based on Joy Harjo

Praise the darkened rooms.

Praise the empty-handed father

sitting in the early morning dark.

Praise the unfilled wished for love

from open-handed father,

and the clenched fist of the mother.

When your sternum is tender

with sadness, whether from today’s

death count or the emptiness of 1975,

place your own cupped hands

before your heart. Praise sadness.

Praise the ability to breathe,

praise the breaths you wished to take

to fill the lungs of your second father.

Praise his death,

and his humble willingness

to stop breathing. Praise

his completed Income Tax forms,

neatly sealed in an envelope

sitting ready on the piano.

Praise this strange year

when the deadline is extended

out to July.

Praise not knowing what

summer will bring, and not knowing

how, and how many of us,

will arrive.

Praise the notion you’ve had

of the Great Flood, the one you don’t believe in,

that was a way to curb the bad,

to purge the overflow. You’re not

the only one to ponder at the drowning,

hundreds each day now,

of the ones in hospital beds or

not in beds,

the ones who are humbled,

and those who were certain

they weren’t meant to be drowned.

Praise the ancient test of evil,

the crushing beneath a board and stones,

the present punishment of lungs

imposed on all, whether or not

they be witches.

Praise the bearing witness to lives

crushed or those who will crush

your own, to the purging of the

good and pure, the breath, the heart.

Praise your own cupped,

good, empty hands before you.